i dunno y...lately i feel so lonely...it hurt...i had many frens that make me enjoy the day...but
unfortunately...still sumthin missing inside me...i like a heartless person...sumtime i juz wanna be alone n drawing all d time...but now i cant even move my hand to draw...it so terrible...i scare i might hard to draw again like usual...it like i forgot who i am n wat i wanna be....it pain that i almost lost n forgot my ambition n my dreams....pathetic i cant even focus in sumthin that i luv anymore...
it more hurt when i tried to be exist in front of all...but at the end...i was d last n lower one...as usual...i miss myself the one before....i used to be stronger n confident kid...but when i started went to high school i became so weak..always get bullied by others...always be pushed away...when i nearly show my light side n begin to be in front of people eyes....but then dark side came to me...i always be the one who alone....i had frens in high school..i do luv them..care n really appreciate wat they did to me....starting from form 1...i became useless....im so weak...always get bullied...always be people tool to get wat they want....(plz dun be mad at me...juz for some people...not all...i didnt blame whoever that respect me..)
i feel like a coward..i cant even fight back...cant even say back wat i want...maybe coz i care so much...that i dun wan hurt them...but do they care for me if im hurt...? i juz wan them to understand...i have feeling so was they...if i respect n care for them y not they..i didnt ask to be luv or care as a princess...i juz wan to be understand sincerely....respect me for who i am...n see me as ur real fren....i know im not perfect....so do u....i have my weak part...n disadvantages...so to u.....i wish i juz can be somethin u can hold on...or a bit exist to u....it really hurt...
"People understand outside but not inside...People do forgive but they never forget..."
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