I scare those day will come...but i know...i cant stop it from changing...i know it is good and some can be bad...i hate to admit it...i hate changing...i know for some reason change can be the best thing in my life...but who knows...it can be the worse thing ever...well i cant destroy the fact....
some people told me dun change urself...keep the way u are...as u move on to university life...juz be who u are...dun get influence by others...example....if i dun like shopping...dun easily get attract by others asking u to go shopping often....i know...it still change a bit....from dislike to like shopping...it is change a bit of me...i know...but i admit it that it also the best...it a good change...at least from shopping i know some of knowledge about things...beside i also learn to go out..not only stay at home...i need to interact wif people...be in the position of crowd...know how to be independent...know how to be adventuring...so... change is good in here...it not mean if i change one thing it will change all of me...
Unfortunately....i still hate a bit changing...it is hurt to see people that we love change slowly..as time goes by...we completely dunno them anymore...at all...one by one of them change in front of me...but i didnt say that i not change a bit...i do change...same as them...but still inside of me i keep the one I am before....i dun wanna change that...
it is pain..so sad if u can imagine....one person say...dun change...always keep in touch wif me...dun forget me...keep anything i gave to u closely n wif love...n when u find new fren...or new life...always remember me...when u have time...we can go out together...enjoy the day....
BUT....at the end... they say they hurt seeing something be replace of their gift to me...hate seeing me wif new things...but wat wif them?? they cant hide the truth...they also have new things in life...have new things to love...have new interest....so to me....
they say they hate n disappointed if i luv my new frens gift more than their gift to me....
BUT...will i ask them if they DUN luv the gift that their new frens gave to them??? can u 100% say u hate the gift that ur NEW fren gave to u??no rite...? RIGHT? as u know...deep inside me...watever gift that i get from my frens n family...for ur information...as u can know.... i still keep it till now...in my closet..or beside me as i sleep together...doesnt mean if i play more or carry my new frens gift always mean i hate ur gift or ignore or throw ur gift already....i KEEP it...coz i still LOVE it...as it from my FREN....that i CARE about...plz....as u said im always childish thinking...dun THIS seem immature to u now??who the one not yet mature now?
I luv my fren...i luv my family...i luv whoever love me sincerely....i keep everything that i luv in my heart...doesnt mean i didnt show it...i will ignore or push it away...i know im not perfect enuff to be perfect fren that can make perfect things to make u feel perfect...coz i am human that can never be perfect as in this world no one perfect....all people have weakness...disadvantages...
plz dun run from it....it is part of u....so i wan change to sumthing good...but i still be who i am... if u say im change...maybe a bit...as the surrounding effect me..but same to u....doenst this atmosphere change u?
STILL..i hate change since before...but...now...some changes is good to me....for some reasons..
"Does not mean I change one thing from me can change completely all of me..."
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